...summer, summer. Oh, how you make us lose all responsibility. I know I have no urge to look at a textbook for the summer months, and the thought that I have to read four books for school next September is kind of a icky feeling right now, 'cause I just want to do nothing.
Apparently, this feeling has played a part in my church attendance. Today I lead worship at my church, playing piano for the liturgy and all the hymns. When I walked into the church, I realized it had been quite a while since I had last gone. You see, I usually go to church because I'm in a couple of the choirs, but around exam/culminatings time I couldn't spare the hours of practise, so I therefore couldn't sing in the choirs. This also meant that I wouldn't be able to attend the services, because I get guilt-tripped by the choir members when I skip practises, even for perfectly legitimate reasons.
Then after exams were over... I basically lost all initiative. Including the initiative to wake up early enough to go to church. ...basically I'm saying that I got lazy and sleepy.
SO today once I walked into the church, I felt an odd sensation of... guiltiness. I missed church, I realized, and I felt bad that I let sleep take priority over God. I mean, really; where is the sense in that?
This summer, don't let that happen to you. Keep going to church, keep praying, and keep staying in touch with God. With no school, you'll have more than enough time to spare some for Him, and it'll probably keep you from getting too out of hand. I mean, whenever I get the urge to do something teenager-y and stupid, if God is close in my mind I feel kind of guilty for even thinking about the stupid urge, like a parent were leering over my shoulder reading my mind. And I guess that is what it is: my Father is giving me the look, reminding me that indulgence can be a very bad thing, and to keep my act together.
Have a good summer :)
~Godspede
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